crushes
crushes.. really crush you.
The emotional highs and lows.. I think I'm getting too old to deal with them. The smallest bit of hope gives the sudden rush of euphoria, the feeling of being on an emotional high, it can last for so long. But just a little disappointment, and I'm falling straight down into the darkest valley. Right now, I'm falling with rocks in my pocket. The walls of the chasm are steep and dark.. I can't grasp anything to break my fall. I just keep falling and I don't know when I'll stop.
Do you like me? Do you not? I just don't know what to do. Maybe I'll try one last time to make the first move. Because it looks like you won't even if I'm the girl you're talking about. Unlikely, but still worth a try. If you react the way all the other guys have, then I suppose there's something wrong with me? Well, I'll see.. Maybe I'll be so lucky to find a niche to hold on to so I'll stop falling down.. In order to find that niche I can't just fall with my hands by my side, I've got to reach out and do something about it. I can't just let myself sit by and do nothing.
Sometimes I think I'm just so naive.
