loneliness
A girl, all alone
Staring at the blank wall
Living an empty life
If you paint her
Can you show me all her sorrow?
Can you draw what’s in her head?
The blinding swirling thoughts
Swimming, diving, drowning
Drowning her
She can’t see the light now
She doesn’t know where to go
She just wants to stay still
Let life take her along for the ride
Til someone comes to claim this girl
When she claims her life for her own
To know who she is
No longer just a girl but a girl with a name
She knows who she is
I'm still in my 'I feel all alone' phase, maybe I'm in the self-pity mode. I'm actually feeling sorry for myself. But, I don't think it's anyone's fault but mine.. the people around me are great, but I just can't seem to get through to them. Life is so much easier being shallow and superficial. But at what price? That day I sat surrounded by people in a noisy classroom. I looked at my empty table. And that's what my life felt like. Nothing. You know how people always say that we always feel loneliest in a crowd? That's what it's been like for a long time. No matter how many people are with me or around me, I still feel like.. no one actually cares. No one cares about you when you're lonely. It's so hard to feel included anywhere, but right now I'm trying to be a bit more thick-skinned and hanging around even when I don't feel comfortable. I feel like I don't belong. Don't belong anywhere or to anyone but myself. Just myself. That doesn't feel so great all the time.
