superficiality
Sometimes, I wonder how difficult it is to belong to a group. Any group. Because it is difficult, no matter how hard you try, one day, sometime or another, sooner or later, you will feel left out. Just like me. Except maybe I feel it more often than many do? I try very hard to fit in, and to a certain extent I do, but I think it's all superficial and forgettable. When I have problems, I don't go to any of these people, and when they have problems, I'm not one of those they look for. I think I prefer to keep to myself, and I don't make friends easily. Although I like to be alone, I don't like feeling lonely. Isn't that such a mystery. Most of the time, even though all you want to be is different, you end up following the crowd, following a certain set of norms, adjusting your behaviour to what is deemed 'normal'. I'm not normal. I'm pretending to be. It's difficult. Everything's so superficial.
