tomorrow
When I woke up today, it was raining. A cleansing of our sins, a washing away of our tears. And then I thought, today is a bright new day. Everyday is a clean slate to start over doing what you didn't get to do yesterday. Then I remembered yesterday's death. And I realised that today is another new day for me, but it will never be another new day for her. And I wish so much it could have been. I wish my cousins' pain could have been spared. Though I don't see them that often, I don't talk to them very much, they're still my relatives after all. And my family matters. For them, everyday when they wake up will be another nightmare, another day filled with heartbreak.. I can't imagine how it must feel like. When I think of them crying yesterday, my heart wants to give out and break.
Just now, on the way to my sister's school, we saw another girl carrying an umbrella walking in the heavy rain. I wanted to stop, but my sister told me not to, because she didn't know that girl. And so, I drove on, against my better instincts. Now I keep thinking about it, because I know how horrible it feels to walk in heavy rain. When have we let others tell us what to do? When did we start disobeying our better instincts? Don't do something that you'll regret, or, don't avoid something that you'll regret not doing. Every day is a new life. Appreciate it and be the best person you can be. My papa puts this as his welcome message on his phone "Live the day to the fullest!", and I used to think it was lame, but now I see the truth of the phrase. Live each day as if it were your last, leave no room for regrets.
Today will be over soon. What are you going to do about tomorrow?
