right now..
I really don't know what's going on.. Just a few weeks ago you told me you missed me. Now, I find that you are 'in love' with another girl. Come on, make up your mind.. Who do you think you are, playing games with me like that? I've had my heart and my head messed with for the past 2 years.. Isn't that enough for you? I really don't know what you're trying to do..
Maybe you just want to know that I still love you, am still waiting for you, waiting for me to tell you how great you are and how I can't survive without you.. Well, I won't say any of that. I'm feeling much happier with myself now, don't feel so desperate to have you now, enjoying school and friends now..
Yesterday I went for my friend's dance competition.. As I stood there cheering and clapping and swooning away with my friends, I noticed this couple in front of me. And I suddenly thought of you. But rather than miss you, I was happy to be there without you, because I knew if you were there you'd give me the same old black face that you'd give everytime I was out with you and didn't give you my full attention.
I'm avoiding you now, because I'm healing just nicely without you, thank you very much. I won't risk letting you come back into my life so soon and ripping me apart again and again. This time, I've found someone even more in need of loving than you.. That's me..
Finding out you love someone else doesn't hurt me like it used to. It just makes me sick because you have been trying to toy with my feelings. Or maybe you think you can find someone else, but I can't, because I will always belong to you? Well, no chance. I belong to myself now, and damn proud of it.
